reaching out

I've been wanting to tell you this for a while.
I would do anything for you. You've probably noticed that to an extent. But what you don't realize is that I would do ANYTHING for you. If you needed to go somewhere and you had no way to get there, I'd find a way to get you there. If you needed something I'd find a way to get it for you.
And here I am. You still love your ex girlfriend who never deserved you in the first place. I care so much about you being happy that I'd rather you be with her than still be miserable.
But what I want most for you is for you to come to ME when things are wrong. I want you to find comfort in me. I want you to be able to talk to me. And I find it so annoying because you DONT UNDERSTAND. You don't realize I've liked you for a solid 5 years now. You dont understand why every time we dated it was so awkward. It was because I was so worried I'd do something wrong and mess it up. I understand why everyone is confused about why I like you. I am too, actually. But I cant do anything about it. You'd probably say 'move on,' but that's what I'd like to say to you about her. I care about you too much to see you go through this. I don't want to hear about her. I want you to wake up and realize how much I'm here for you and how much you appreciate it. I want you to want to be with me. And I think thats where my sadness is coming from- you're the reason I've been acting so weird. It's not because I'm lost, or that I'm changing. I'm scared I've lost you forever. The one that I counted on- I think you've moved on for good. And I don't know what to do.